Most of the time, I find myself struggling to impress someone that I don't even know, being envious of someone else's life, attempting to look like someone I'm not, striving to be as popular as everyone else is, feeling indignant because of not being given an opportunity, putting myself down, getting frustrated at the lack of freedom to choose, wishing that I were someone else, wishing that I were born a genius so that I wouldn't have to struggle so hard with math problems that others solve with ease, cursing my ugly fringe which refuses to part nicely like everyone else's thick side bangs that can be parted all to one side without them looking bald, wishing that I were more musically inclined, wishing that I loved training etc
I know that I'm really lucky compared to all the kids in third world countries, deprived of education, world peace, food, clean water, sanitation etc... but I just can't help thinking how my life would have been different in someone else's shoes.
I just need 1 wish out of the many wishes.
At times I really wished that you could at least understand the reason for chaos beneath that calm exterior, because maybe if you could understand things from my perspective, things would be so much easier
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
Most of the time, I find myself struggling to impress someone that I don't even know, being envious of someone else's life, attempting to look like someone I'm not, striving to be as popular as everyone else is, feeling indignant because of not being given an opportunity, putting myself down, getting frustrated at the lack of freedom to choose, wishing that I were someone else, wishing that I were born a genius so that I wouldn't have to struggle so hard with math problems that others solve with ease, cursing my ugly fringe which refuses to part nicely like everyone else's thick side bangs that can be parted all to one side without them looking bald, wishing that I were more musically inclined, wishing that I loved training etc
I know that I'm really lucky compared to all the kids in third world countries, deprived of education, world peace, food, clean water, sanitation etc... but I just can't help thinking how my life would have been different in someone else's shoes.
I just need 1 wish out of the many wishes.
At times I really wished that you could at least understand the reason for chaos beneath that calm exterior, because maybe if you could understand things from my perspective, things would be so much easier
