I really don't know what to think anymore. I feel like my whole life is screwing up before my eyes and that I can't do anything to salvage it.
Why? I'm not gonna be selfish and ask, why not me? Although I'm really really hurt by the results, I'm even more hurt and pissed off because _______ and ________ got in and wtf they so do NOT deserve the position. AT ALL.
I feel that there are MUCH MUCH more deserving candidates than them. Like seriously? I know I sound like a total bitch now but if only you knew the injustice I'm feeling right now. There are real people OUT THERE, who really CARE about the student population, who will be ever ready to catch you when you fall so hard, who will be always there to hold your hand when you're scared, who will always be willing to stay back with you even if it was for your own selfish reasons. And yet why are chances given to two freaking people who DIDN'T EVEN bother to say hi to you after talking to you in the waiting room as if we were old friends while waiting for the interview? What the freak seriously.I know I don't know them well enough to judge them but from the littlest things you can get a rough idea of their personalities. I feel so ahdgsjmdbvsdhd on top of the kjadsdnsjdbvsjdb I'm feeling I swear my head's gonna burst.
I guess it's still my fault. I've allowed myself to hope so much that now I'm falling so damn hard. I guess I should have known better. Now every kind gesture from their part before this happened feels more like a wave of disappointment taunting me. The reason why I'm taking this so harshly is because you have totally NO idea how much I wanted this for their respective reasons. I know it's not the end of the world, but that can't erase the fact that my heart's in a chaos now. However, this won't deter me from being me, because I know that through the interview, I was true to my heart, I was true to myself, I gave my all, I did my best and it wasn't good enough for them, so what can I do? Instead, time will show, those ______ who got in through facades, they won't last. :)
Once again, I've disappointed you again
Please heal the hearts of those who have been hurt by this;
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
I really don't know what to think anymore. I feel like my whole life is screwing up before my eyes and that I can't do anything to salvage it.
Why? I'm not gonna be selfish and ask, why not me? Although I'm really really hurt by the results, I'm even more hurt and pissed off because _______ and ________ got in and wtf they so do NOT deserve the position. AT ALL.
I feel that there are MUCH MUCH more deserving candidates than them. Like seriously? I know I sound like a total bitch now but if only you knew the injustice I'm feeling right now. There are real people OUT THERE, who really CARE about the student population, who will be ever ready to catch you when you fall so hard, who will be always there to hold your hand when you're scared, who will always be willing to stay back with you even if it was for your own selfish reasons. And yet why are chances given to two freaking people who DIDN'T EVEN bother to say hi to you after talking to you in the waiting room as if we were old friends while waiting for the interview? What the freak seriously.I know I don't know them well enough to judge them but from the littlest things you can get a rough idea of their personalities. I feel so ahdgsjmdbvsdhd on top of the kjadsdnsjdbvsjdb I'm feeling I swear my head's gonna burst.
I guess it's still my fault. I've allowed myself to hope so much that now I'm falling so damn hard. I guess I should have known better. Now every kind gesture from their part before this happened feels more like a wave of disappointment taunting me. The reason why I'm taking this so harshly is because you have totally NO idea how much I wanted this for their respective reasons. I know it's not the end of the world, but that can't erase the fact that my heart's in a chaos now. However, this won't deter me from being me, because I know that through the interview, I was true to my heart, I was true to myself, I gave my all, I did my best and it wasn't good enough for them, so what can I do? Instead, time will show, those ______ who got in through facades, they won't last. :)
Once again, I've disappointed you again
Please heal the hearts of those who have been hurt by this;
