This week has been totally insane. Concert prep has been really hardcore to the max. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,Thursday,Friday, Saturday AND Sunday, from early in the morning till 7 at night. I'm really lethargic physically and mentally. It feels like there will never be an end to all these, and it's most probably the case until concert ends. But you know what? It will be worth it. Hard work always pays off, no?
I know that although I may be feeling really really apathetic and lifeless now, after concert ends, I will miss times like these, where we see each other every single day for long hours, which are much more the hours we spend with our classmates. I will miss the treasured 1 hour lunch breaks spent eating awesome food from Far East and drinking bubble tea more than thrice a week (which is crazily unhealthy). The reason why we're working so damn hard now is because we are really UNPREPARED, and we don't want you to waste $12/15 on a show that's not even worth your time. It sure sucks, not even having time for yourself to have ample rest, much less having time to go out and chill with your friends, but everything will be worth it in the end. I hope that gym concert will be a success given the amount of sweat and long hours invested, but I'm not gonna be complacent and expect success-I've been hurt enough on Friday to continue living life with the same mentality. I've also realised that we actually had tons of time to prepare for our concert, just that we didn't make full use of the time we had at all. We started immediately after our comp ended in April, but now, we're still lost and disorganized.
I admit, I do feel infuriated that I had to spare my Sunday today (which was supposed to be my ONLY rest day in the whole damn week to spend time with myself) in school early in the morning just for concert prep and ending at 7 at night because since the June hols, we had been practising for our concert items, but those concert preps were extremely UNPRODUCTIVE even though it was so long and it frickin took up our time to study for the exams with 2 of the full-day concert preps on top of the 3 times training per week. In the end, we didn't even use any single item from those concert preps like what the shit! I swear I don't want concert anymore next year but if we are unable to decline, WE MUST START EARLY AND IMPLEMENT A SOLID AND FOOLPROOF PLAN WITH DIRECTION AND DATELINES idc. I'm feeling unjust now ttm. :( ALL THOSE WASTED TIME AND EFFORT FOR NOTHING. IT COULD HAVE BEEN PUT INTO GREAT USE SO WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO PANIC LIKE CRAP NOW.
I still need to sew the straps of my gay costume and there's school tmr. I seriously can't believe that I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL ON A SUNDAY MORNING AND LEFT AT NIGHT. MY SUNDAY. :( ajdhsjhfgjdfb BUT IT WILL BE WORTH IT. :)
I think I can collapse on the bed anytime soon. 6 more days! JIAYOU RGSRHYGYM2010.
(I've fully accepted what life has thrown me as much as I don't want to believe that it's true, that all my fantasies will remain fantasies. But it's okay. You don't get your way all the time. Instead of choosing to remain apathetic, look at the basic things that you are lucky enough to already have while other people in third world countries don't. )
“Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.” -Unknown
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
This week has been totally insane. Concert prep has been really hardcore to the max. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,Thursday,Friday, Saturday AND Sunday, from early in the morning till 7 at night. I'm really lethargic physically and mentally. It feels like there will never be an end to all these, and it's most probably the case until concert ends. But you know what? It will be worth it. Hard work always pays off, no?
I know that although I may be feeling really really apathetic and lifeless now, after concert ends, I will miss times like these, where we see each other every single day for long hours, which are much more the hours we spend with our classmates. I will miss the treasured 1 hour lunch breaks spent eating awesome food from Far East and drinking bubble tea more than thrice a week (which is crazily unhealthy). The reason why we're working so damn hard now is because we are really UNPREPARED, and we don't want you to waste $12/15 on a show that's not even worth your time. It sure sucks, not even having time for yourself to have ample rest, much less having time to go out and chill with your friends, but everything will be worth it in the end. I hope that gym concert will be a success given the amount of sweat and long hours invested, but I'm not gonna be complacent and expect success-I've been hurt enough on Friday to continue living life with the same mentality. I've also realised that we actually had tons of time to prepare for our concert, just that we didn't make full use of the time we had at all. We started immediately after our comp ended in April, but now, we're still lost and disorganized.
I admit, I do feel infuriated that I had to spare my Sunday today (which was supposed to be my ONLY rest day in the whole damn week to spend time with myself) in school early in the morning just for concert prep and ending at 7 at night because since the June hols, we had been practising for our concert items, but those concert preps were extremely UNPRODUCTIVE even though it was so long and it frickin took up our time to study for the exams with 2 of the full-day concert preps on top of the 3 times training per week. In the end, we didn't even use any single item from those concert preps like what the shit! I swear I don't want concert anymore next year but if we are unable to decline, WE MUST START EARLY AND IMPLEMENT A SOLID AND FOOLPROOF PLAN WITH DIRECTION AND DATELINES idc. I'm feeling unjust now ttm. :( ALL THOSE WASTED TIME AND EFFORT FOR NOTHING. IT COULD HAVE BEEN PUT INTO GREAT USE SO WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO PANIC LIKE CRAP NOW.
I still need to sew the straps of my gay costume and there's school tmr. I seriously can't believe that I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL ON A SUNDAY MORNING AND LEFT AT NIGHT. MY SUNDAY. :( ajdhsjhfgjdfb BUT IT WILL BE WORTH IT. :)
I think I can collapse on the bed anytime soon. 6 more days! JIAYOU RGSRHYGYM2010.
(I've fully accepted what life has thrown me as much as I don't want to believe that it's true, that all my fantasies will remain fantasies. But it's okay. You don't get your way all the time. Instead of choosing to remain apathetic, look at the basic things that you are lucky enough to already have while other people in third world countries don't. )
“Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.” -Unknown
