I'm not perfect but I keep trying cuz' thats what I said I would do from the start
Thanks for bothering to do things that others would not do. It's the little reassurances that keeps me alive inside. Thanks for the things that may seem small to you but are actually big in my eyes. :-) At least now I know how you think of me. :')
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I've been thinking yet alot these few days. But yeah it's sensitive so I shan't reveal it here on this public domain. Sometimes you aren't granted any choices but it all depends on what you believe in. At least that's what I'm holding on to, for now.
Kim said psb results will be revealed after EYAs. That's a pretty long wait but I'm hoping for the best and trying to stay alittle more sanguine on this. :-) I'll try not to dwell on it and let what will come come. If I'm meant to be, then I will be. If I'm not, then oh well. At least I really tried my best. :')
As long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong.
I know sometimes life is really unfair. You don't get to choose your stand on some issues, you give in so much and get so little in return, you mug your ass off only to get lousy grades while others who don't try so hard get good grades, you can't do math because you just don't have the math brain, you try so hard to give in to someone and try to salvage a friendship but it doesn't work and when you stop trying, someone blames you for not trying at all. But I guess life isn't always fair is it? Some people are just more lucky than the others.
It hurts, the pain sears right through me to know that I can't be what I want to be and that others whom I cannot imagine would be, are.
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
I'm not perfect but I keep trying cuz' thats what I said I would do from the start
Thanks for bothering to do things that others would not do. It's the little reassurances that keeps me alive inside. Thanks for the things that may seem small to you but are actually big in my eyes. :-) At least now I know how you think of me. :')
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I've been thinking yet alot these few days. But yeah it's sensitive so I shan't reveal it here on this public domain. Sometimes you aren't granted any choices but it all depends on what you believe in. At least that's what I'm holding on to, for now.
Kim said psb results will be revealed after EYAs. That's a pretty long wait but I'm hoping for the best and trying to stay alittle more sanguine on this. :-) I'll try not to dwell on it and let what will come come. If I'm meant to be, then I will be. If I'm not, then oh well. At least I really tried my best. :')
As long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong.
I know sometimes life is really unfair. You don't get to choose your stand on some issues, you give in so much and get so little in return, you mug your ass off only to get lousy grades while others who don't try so hard get good grades, you can't do math because you just don't have the math brain, you try so hard to give in to someone and try to salvage a friendship but it doesn't work and when you stop trying, someone blames you for not trying at all. But I guess life isn't always fair is it? Some people are just more lucky than the others.
It hurts, the pain sears right through me to know that I can't be what I want to be and that others whom I cannot imagine would be, are.
