Today was a long and tiresome day I'm so exhausted (recess was taken up and I effing didn't have food so I had to work on an empty stomach with no mental break from the time school started[7.20 am] to 1.20pm omg I swear I died. And after school was another kind of trauma with malay lesson from 3-6 okay I'm really collapsing from lethargy now someone save me) I'm gonna fall asleep while brushing my teeth or something. I feel damn guilty that everyone is mugging their asses off for history and whatever and it's rubbing peer pressure on me because I'm not even half done with history mugging like wtf but I think I shan't care. It's so tiring to chase after this fearing to lose out spirit I feel like letting go and giving up. I'm currently screwed in every aspect of my life sometimes I hate myself for being so dumb at times when everyone is acing like nobody's business but I guess that you can't compare yourself to people in this manner because all you'll get is just a broken self-esteem.
It sucks to leave things hanging in the air but I'm really so tired (literally and emotionally) that I'm just not gonna think about this for tonight.
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
Today was a long and tiresome day I'm so exhausted (recess was taken up and I effing didn't have food so I had to work on an empty stomach with no mental break from the time school started[7.20 am] to 1.20pm omg I swear I died. And after school was another kind of trauma with malay lesson from 3-6 okay I'm really collapsing from lethargy now someone save me) I'm gonna fall asleep while brushing my teeth or something. I feel damn guilty that everyone is mugging their asses off for history and whatever and it's rubbing peer pressure on me because I'm not even half done with history mugging like wtf but I think I shan't care. It's so tiring to chase after this fearing to lose out spirit I feel like letting go and giving up. I'm currently screwed in every aspect of my life sometimes I hate myself for being so dumb at times when everyone is acing like nobody's business but I guess that you can't compare yourself to people in this manner because all you'll get is just a broken self-esteem.
It sucks to leave things hanging in the air but I'm really so tired (literally and emotionally) that I'm just not gonna think about this for tonight.
