Any idea how stressful this week was for me? Continuous mugging of bio till 1 for idk how many straight days, damn afraid that I wouldn't be able to complete the topics on time, hecking malay oral and regretting on the day on exam and lastly 2.4km run which I freaking didn't have the time to train for.
BIO WAS DAMN SCREWED UP DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT ALL THE MUGGING GONE DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE %#%@#$#!
Malay oral was equally screwed cuz' I forgot all the key phrases and asked my cikgu how to say 'to allow' in malay, told her I forgot my sentences, and asked her to repeat in english.
At this standard how am I supposed to pass?
Anyway 2.4 KM RUN TODAY WAS REALLY AN EYE-OPENER IN A SENSE. :) I'm feeling really ambivalent about this. I'm touched, pissed at myself, yet happy, and sad. HAHA.
Shing was my pacing mate and we were really awesome together cuz' WE CONTINUOUSLY RAN ALL 5 3/4 ROUNDS ROUND THE TRACK TOGETHER, SIDE BY SIDE, NEVER EVER STOPPING TO WALK AT ALL. For this bit, I feel really elated and proud of myself. :)
HAHA BTW SHING'S HAIR WAS LIKE A MAD WOMAN AND IT WAS FLARING LIKE CRAZY CUZ HER RUBBER BAND DROPPED ON HER 2nd or 3rd round HAHAHHA. At first I didn't realise but when I finally turned to her, wanting to ask her if we should slow down because I was really dying, I SAW HER AWESOME HAIR HAHAHAH. IT WAS REALLY CRAZY AND FUNNY but I didn't laugh, or laugh when I heard Yuhua laughed because I knew that it would waste energy. And halfway, Mrs Wee shouted to me 'Denise! Don't be so bouncy! Don't waste your energy!" LOL.
I THINK WE LOOKED ZAI RUNNING TOGETHER FOR ALL THE ROUNDS. THE LAST PART OF THE RUN WAS REALLY TOUCHING EVEN THOUGH I THOUGHT I DIED. :))) Thanks Pau, Tong, Jal, Wen Jun and all. When Shing and I were on our last round, at the track (before the canteen that part of the track there), suddenly Pau and Tong emerged from the side and started running with us. :)
*Legs were dying in the first place.
Pau: GO GO DENISE RUN RUN RUNNNNNNNN (Runs with me)
*Increases speed and sprints, legs really dying already.
Pau: FASTER FASTER RUN RUN GO GO DENISEEE RUNNNNNNN. (Sprints with me)
*Surges forward and breaks into a mad sprint despite legs finding the urge to rip apart
Pau: YESS GO DINIS RUN RUN LAST ROUNDDDD ALREADY RUNNNNNN.
*Two mad women running for their lives
Tong: SHINGGGG RUN RUN RUN GO GO CHASE DENISEEEEE RUNNNN
*Another two mad women running for their lives
Pau: GO GO RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
*Hears the cheers and the one from Wen Jun was especially striking :) *Reaches finishing line. Time: 13:52. *LEGS ALMOST BUCKLED. BREATHING WAS CLOGGED SOMEWHERE.
Seriously after that my breathing went haywire, I felt like the lu xiao yu from Secret, I was super scared okay my breathing was extremely abnormal. But it got okay when I walked round and round. Thankfully. :P
And before that I was really touched by a girl who 'threw' away her own timing to pull and lug her friend who was not at all sports-inclined. 'Don't walk! *Pulls her friend C'mon you can do ittttt DON'T WALKKK."
Awww.
Hmm, I think that alot of things motivated me during my run. I was flooding my mind with Milo pictures but I couldn't really remember, so I went to 'paste' the super sweet convo from last year in my head, but it didn't work much after that. :( Then I started thinking about running being Milo's awesome sport, but it also didn't help much. I think the 'Don't stop running' words on my arm was utmost motivational! Whenever I felt like I couldn't run anymore, I would look at my arm and repeat "DON'T STOP RUNNING." in my head like a thousand times, although idk why but my mind kept stressing STOP. HAHA.
Anyway, I'm like so lousy compared to my batchmates arghhh. They all got 12 something I feel so lousy inside but I TRIED MY BEST AND I DIDN'T STOP AT ALL SO GOOD JOB DINIS. :D
OH AND I WAS THE RECORDER FOR JAL HAHA. Then at her last round she went to mouth 'Last round?" to me and I saw the score sheet had 2 empty spaces so I shook my head and I think she nearly died but haha it was because I hadn't recorded the timing when she crossed the original place for the 5th time so I thought that she had two more rounds left and only realised it after she ran away. HAHA SORRY FAT :(
OH AND I GOT FULL MARKS FOR GEOG AA FIRST TIME HAHAHA :D But I miserably failed my math AA cuz my mind can't do non-routine problems for nuts HAHA.
AND I AM SO HAPPY FOR PE TODAY BECAUSE NOW I'M NOT AFRAID TO RELEASE MY LEFT HAND TO GRAB THE UNDERSIDE OF THE ROCK FOR THE 'Hanging-from-the-wall' rock climbing! AND I CLIMBED TO THE 6TH PANEL ON THE FREAKING 3RD LANE WHICH IS DAMN HARD HEHE :)
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
Any idea how stressful this week was for me? Continuous mugging of bio till 1 for idk how many straight days, damn afraid that I wouldn't be able to complete the topics on time, hecking malay oral and regretting on the day on exam and lastly 2.4km run which I freaking didn't have the time to train for.
BIO WAS DAMN SCREWED UP DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT ALL THE MUGGING GONE DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE %#%@#$#!
Malay oral was equally screwed cuz' I forgot all the key phrases and asked my cikgu how to say 'to allow' in malay, told her I forgot my sentences, and asked her to repeat in english.
At this standard how am I supposed to pass?
Anyway 2.4 KM RUN TODAY WAS REALLY AN EYE-OPENER IN A SENSE. :) I'm feeling really ambivalent about this. I'm touched, pissed at myself, yet happy, and sad. HAHA.
Shing was my pacing mate and we were really awesome together cuz' WE CONTINUOUSLY RAN ALL 5 3/4 ROUNDS ROUND THE TRACK TOGETHER, SIDE BY SIDE, NEVER EVER STOPPING TO WALK AT ALL. For this bit, I feel really elated and proud of myself. :)
HAHA BTW SHING'S HAIR WAS LIKE A MAD WOMAN AND IT WAS FLARING LIKE CRAZY CUZ HER RUBBER BAND DROPPED ON HER 2nd or 3rd round HAHAHHA. At first I didn't realise but when I finally turned to her, wanting to ask her if we should slow down because I was really dying, I SAW HER AWESOME HAIR HAHAHAH. IT WAS REALLY CRAZY AND FUNNY but I didn't laugh, or laugh when I heard Yuhua laughed because I knew that it would waste energy. And halfway, Mrs Wee shouted to me 'Denise! Don't be so bouncy! Don't waste your energy!" LOL.
I THINK WE LOOKED ZAI RUNNING TOGETHER FOR ALL THE ROUNDS. THE LAST PART OF THE RUN WAS REALLY TOUCHING EVEN THOUGH I THOUGHT I DIED. :))) Thanks Pau, Tong, Jal, Wen Jun and all. When Shing and I were on our last round, at the track (before the canteen that part of the track there), suddenly Pau and Tong emerged from the side and started running with us. :)
*Legs were dying in the first place.
Pau: GO GO DENISE RUN RUN RUNNNNNNNN (Runs with me)
*Increases speed and sprints, legs really dying already.
Pau: FASTER FASTER RUN RUN GO GO DENISEEE RUNNNNNNN. (Sprints with me)
*Surges forward and breaks into a mad sprint despite legs finding the urge to rip apart
Pau: YESS GO DINIS RUN RUN LAST ROUNDDDD ALREADY RUNNNNNN.
*Two mad women running for their lives
Tong: SHINGGGG RUN RUN RUN GO GO CHASE DENISEEEEE RUNNNN
*Another two mad women running for their lives
Pau: GO GO RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
*Hears the cheers and the one from Wen Jun was especially striking :) *Reaches finishing line. Time: 13:52. *LEGS ALMOST BUCKLED. BREATHING WAS CLOGGED SOMEWHERE.
Seriously after that my breathing went haywire, I felt like the lu xiao yu from Secret, I was super scared okay my breathing was extremely abnormal. But it got okay when I walked round and round. Thankfully. :P
And before that I was really touched by a girl who 'threw' away her own timing to pull and lug her friend who was not at all sports-inclined. 'Don't walk! *Pulls her friend C'mon you can do ittttt DON'T WALKKK."
Awww.
Hmm, I think that alot of things motivated me during my run. I was flooding my mind with Milo pictures but I couldn't really remember, so I went to 'paste' the super sweet convo from last year in my head, but it didn't work much after that. :( Then I started thinking about running being Milo's awesome sport, but it also didn't help much. I think the 'Don't stop running' words on my arm was utmost motivational! Whenever I felt like I couldn't run anymore, I would look at my arm and repeat "DON'T STOP RUNNING." in my head like a thousand times, although idk why but my mind kept stressing STOP. HAHA.
Anyway, I'm like so lousy compared to my batchmates arghhh. They all got 12 something I feel so lousy inside but I TRIED MY BEST AND I DIDN'T STOP AT ALL SO GOOD JOB DINIS. :D
OH AND I WAS THE RECORDER FOR JAL HAHA. Then at her last round she went to mouth 'Last round?" to me and I saw the score sheet had 2 empty spaces so I shook my head and I think she nearly died but haha it was because I hadn't recorded the timing when she crossed the original place for the 5th time so I thought that she had two more rounds left and only realised it after she ran away. HAHA SORRY FAT :(
OH AND I GOT FULL MARKS FOR GEOG AA FIRST TIME HAHAHA :D But I miserably failed my math AA cuz my mind can't do non-routine problems for nuts HAHA.
AND I AM SO HAPPY FOR PE TODAY BECAUSE NOW I'M NOT AFRAID TO RELEASE MY LEFT HAND TO GRAB THE UNDERSIDE OF THE ROCK FOR THE 'Hanging-from-the-wall' rock climbing! AND I CLIMBED TO THE 6TH PANEL ON THE FREAKING 3RD LANE WHICH IS DAMN HARD HEHE :)
