I think that from today onwards I will stop trying so hard to be someone I'm not and not feel contrite about it, because it really tires me out.
It seems like it was the twinkle of an eye when orientation started, and now the end of this year is just a couple of hours away.
I think I will miss 2009 somehow. But I still look forward to 2010 nevertheless... :)
My new year resolution?
1)To pass the interview of being a psl (I really want this, sorry tong but I get really jealous when I see you in the vest!)
2)To begin revision on a daily basis and not rush like a mad cow when exams are nearing
3)To file everything from year start to year end and not chuck it in my common file anyhow and only file it when the whole school year ends (opps)
4)To get hate, or even dislike out of my dictionary (although it seems majorly impossible with a couple or two bitches)
5)To grow taller-1.60 by the end of next year! (Omg, I really want this too! And tallies like Ver, don't mock at me haha)
6)To attain at least a 3.68 GPA next year! (I want this too. :()
7)3rd overall for (R)Gym Competition, overall C'Div Individual :)
Okay I shan't be goddamn greedy and go on because I should keep myself in check. No point setting such high skies when I know that it's out of reach forever.
Anyway today only four pathetic people (including me) turned up at Sengkang Sports Complex to watch the national team people (Megan etc) and the Provincial team called Jiangsu (which coach was from) from China.
The nat team people were already inhumanely flexible and the amount of physical training they did were uncountable but who knew that the team from China was much worse. Their physical training all incorporated flexibility and haha we guys were squealing in amazement+disgust+horror at how their legs easily shot up to 180 degrees! :O They really put us to shame, lol. :/
But I pity those young flexi kiddos, they really didn't have a childhood training their guts out for Singapore. I mean, train so hard and still get scolded like they weren't trying their utmost best? Vacant eyes were omnipresent. :( Even my heart ached.
However, I realise that coach was actually giving us alot of leeway in our physical training, as much as I used to complain about the already ridiculous amount. D: Like seriously. This has pushed things in perspective for me, yay? I bet they would just die from tedium watching us kick our legs, haha.
Oh and there was this really condescending bitch (who was a coach from China- no prejudices involved haha!) who ranted at a poor kiddo who couldn't do her stunt properly. I felt like punching her fat face, LOL.
And the nat team coach really wasn't very nice. We bowed to her as a greeting and then she just totally ignored us ttm. Her eyes just shifted across us when we bowed and she walked away.
Wtf?
She almost chased us out because she thought we were just random people trying to see her team train. Thankfully, coach faster came to our rescue.
I really dislike her ego.
Tsk!
Opps and sorry for the prolix post, I think you guys just slept reading it, haha! :)
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
I think that from today onwards I will stop trying so hard to be someone I'm not and not feel contrite about it, because it really tires me out.
It seems like it was the twinkle of an eye when orientation started, and now the end of this year is just a couple of hours away.
I think I will miss 2009 somehow. But I still look forward to 2010 nevertheless... :)
My new year resolution?
1)To pass the interview of being a psl (I really want this, sorry tong but I get really jealous when I see you in the vest!)
2)To begin revision on a daily basis and not rush like a mad cow when exams are nearing
3)To file everything from year start to year end and not chuck it in my common file anyhow and only file it when the whole school year ends (opps)
4)To get hate, or even dislike out of my dictionary (although it seems majorly impossible with a couple or two bitches)
5)To grow taller-1.60 by the end of next year! (Omg, I really want this too! And tallies like Ver, don't mock at me haha)
6)To attain at least a 3.68 GPA next year! (I want this too. :()
7)3rd overall for (R)Gym Competition, overall C'Div Individual :)
Okay I shan't be goddamn greedy and go on because I should keep myself in check. No point setting such high skies when I know that it's out of reach forever.
Anyway today only four pathetic people (including me) turned up at Sengkang Sports Complex to watch the national team people (Megan etc) and the Provincial team called Jiangsu (which coach was from) from China.
The nat team people were already inhumanely flexible and the amount of physical training they did were uncountable but who knew that the team from China was much worse. Their physical training all incorporated flexibility and haha we guys were squealing in amazement+disgust+horror at how their legs easily shot up to 180 degrees! :O They really put us to shame, lol. :/
But I pity those young flexi kiddos, they really didn't have a childhood training their guts out for Singapore. I mean, train so hard and still get scolded like they weren't trying their utmost best? Vacant eyes were omnipresent. :( Even my heart ached.
However, I realise that coach was actually giving us alot of leeway in our physical training, as much as I used to complain about the already ridiculous amount. D: Like seriously. This has pushed things in perspective for me, yay? I bet they would just die from tedium watching us kick our legs, haha.
Oh and there was this really condescending bitch (who was a coach from China- no prejudices involved haha!) who ranted at a poor kiddo who couldn't do her stunt properly. I felt like punching her fat face, LOL.
And the nat team coach really wasn't very nice. We bowed to her as a greeting and then she just totally ignored us ttm. Her eyes just shifted across us when we bowed and she walked away.
Wtf?
She almost chased us out because she thought we were just random people trying to see her team train. Thankfully, coach faster came to our rescue.
I really dislike her ego.
Tsk!
Opps and sorry for the prolix post, I think you guys just slept reading it, haha! :)
