I hate the feeling of high-flying hopes being dashed at the mercy of something I really desired. Should I choose to give up living my dream? Or should I push on and try again next year? I'm really disheartened but I think I will still follow my heart. After all, joining PSB is something I was/am extremely hungry for. (:
I realli realli wish to help those sec ones next year intergrate into their abrupt change in secondary life like how my psls did the same for me. :( Over (maybe) 50 elites vying for 13 spots, what were my chances? :( Why is everything so rough-going in secondary school? No longer the bed of roses which I took for granted for.
Hmm today's inter class karoake was screwed ttm, but I guess the teachers were being very nice by giving every class the same high score regardless of how poor our performance was. The results were so unjust in the sense that those classes who bothered to bring/make props and clothes didn't walk away with any prize. :( And we got pwned by 109. Singing is so not our forte. Plus, we couldn't even really remember the lyrics, how to even remember the hand actions? D: But the song really relates to Ms Loh and me, hehe. (: 'I'm so out of love, I'm so lost without you...' sure Ms Loh can you feel it too? Hehe <3 I wished every day's training during the December hols could be like today. And today's training was not boring at all because I finally got to do my routine with the music, but I screwed it up big time. Who cares, there is still more than 5 months till' next year's competition. (:
P/s: Ms Loh knocked off even before 1.34 p.m today how sad :(
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
I hate the feeling of high-flying hopes being dashed at the mercy of something I really desired. Should I choose to give up living my dream? Or should I push on and try again next year? I'm really disheartened but I think I will still follow my heart. After all, joining PSB is something I was/am extremely hungry for. (:
I realli realli wish to help those sec ones next year intergrate into their abrupt change in secondary life like how my psls did the same for me. :( Over (maybe) 50 elites vying for 13 spots, what were my chances? :( Why is everything so rough-going in secondary school? No longer the bed of roses which I took for granted for.
Hmm today's inter class karoake was screwed ttm, but I guess the teachers were being very nice by giving every class the same high score regardless of how poor our performance was. The results were so unjust in the sense that those classes who bothered to bring/make props and clothes didn't walk away with any prize. :( And we got pwned by 109. Singing is so not our forte. Plus, we couldn't even really remember the lyrics, how to even remember the hand actions? D: But the song really relates to Ms Loh and me, hehe. (: 'I'm so out of love, I'm so lost without you...' sure Ms Loh can you feel it too? Hehe <3 I wished every day's training during the December hols could be like today. And today's training was not boring at all because I finally got to do my routine with the music, but I screwed it up big time. Who cares, there is still more than 5 months till' next year's competition. (:
P/s: Ms Loh knocked off even before 1.34 p.m today how sad :(
