I was absolutely worried, pissed, disappointed and despondent since yesterday till this afternoon. I mean how can the world be so unfair to me? Why don't I get due credit for slogging my freaking guts out? What are they trying to imply (if the unhappy ending remains status quo) to me? To say "Thank you for your effort and utmost dedication in rhythmic gymnastics. However, I'm sorry to say that one year of slogging like a cow with a schizophrenia outlook has been washed away into the drain. But, we hope that you will continue to win awards for gym," is it? I reckon that this LEAPS thing is damn screwed. How can they claim that because my attendance has been less than 50% my total points will not be annulled? How can they even claim that my attendance has been less than 50% when I go for extra trainings on top of the existing madly existent 3 trainings a week when it was nearing competition and during the June holidays while the rest were shaking their legs at home? Oh what about the times when I didn't pon training because of the overload of PTs and examination revision? Then what about the achievement portion? What's the use of training so damn hard and draining my energy in gym to win awards for the school and end up uncredited. Isn't there an irony in the cca slip where it is stated '2nd placing at national level in interschool gym competition' and 'total cca points will not be annulled because attendance is less than 50%'.In case you don't get what I mean, how can you attain results without intensive practise? What the hell! And actually it's not really their fault. I'm also angered with myself for not checking INET and realising that there was actually an announcement stating the dateline for amendments. But still it's not that fair isn't it? I'm really hoping for a definite miracle, a miracle that I can really devote all my faith and hopes into. And I'm really going to put all my hopes and have faith in Mrs Wee. I really hope that she can amend it for the sake of our unjust cca records despite not being the one in charge. Oh no how could I be so negligent to miss that opportunity (dateline was 4 days ago) to salvage my record?! I'M SO FREAKING SCREWED. D: Please please please. Someone turn things around!
And the worst thing is trainings are EVERYDAY once the holidays start! D': As much as I try to forget about this unjust fate of mine, it continues to haunt me on a daily basis. What if this problem reoccurs next year. EVERYDAY LEH OMG then what's the diff. between school team and national team?! What the hell. Rhythmic Gym be damn. I should have just turned down this offer and joined NCC air with KaiYan, Jallene, Tong, Shing and Chewy and oogle over Jaslyn and sing Purple Light. Please God please don't make me regret joining this cca since it will last me for 3 years! Omg and gym stunts growth! So much a sacrifice for nothing, nothing at all. What should I do? DAMN. Mrs Wee please don't stand on the sidelines. :(
P/s: Where are you Ms Loh how come I don't see you in school? :( P/s/s: I think Kris Allen is hawt partly because (I think) Ms Loh likes him (:
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
I was absolutely worried, pissed, disappointed and despondent since yesterday till this afternoon. I mean how can the world be so unfair to me? Why don't I get due credit for slogging my freaking guts out? What are they trying to imply (if the unhappy ending remains status quo) to me? To say "Thank you for your effort and utmost dedication in rhythmic gymnastics. However, I'm sorry to say that one year of slogging like a cow with a schizophrenia outlook has been washed away into the drain. But, we hope that you will continue to win awards for gym," is it? I reckon that this LEAPS thing is damn screwed. How can they claim that because my attendance has been less than 50% my total points will not be annulled? How can they even claim that my attendance has been less than 50% when I go for extra trainings on top of the existing madly existent 3 trainings a week when it was nearing competition and during the June holidays while the rest were shaking their legs at home? Oh what about the times when I didn't pon training because of the overload of PTs and examination revision? Then what about the achievement portion? What's the use of training so damn hard and draining my energy in gym to win awards for the school and end up uncredited. Isn't there an irony in the cca slip where it is stated '2nd placing at national level in interschool gym competition' and 'total cca points will not be annulled because attendance is less than 50%'.In case you don't get what I mean, how can you attain results without intensive practise? What the hell! And actually it's not really their fault. I'm also angered with myself for not checking INET and realising that there was actually an announcement stating the dateline for amendments. But still it's not that fair isn't it? I'm really hoping for a definite miracle, a miracle that I can really devote all my faith and hopes into. And I'm really going to put all my hopes and have faith in Mrs Wee. I really hope that she can amend it for the sake of our unjust cca records despite not being the one in charge. Oh no how could I be so negligent to miss that opportunity (dateline was 4 days ago) to salvage my record?! I'M SO FREAKING SCREWED. D: Please please please. Someone turn things around!
And the worst thing is trainings are EVERYDAY once the holidays start! D': As much as I try to forget about this unjust fate of mine, it continues to haunt me on a daily basis. What if this problem reoccurs next year. EVERYDAY LEH OMG then what's the diff. between school team and national team?! What the hell. Rhythmic Gym be damn. I should have just turned down this offer and joined NCC air with KaiYan, Jallene, Tong, Shing and Chewy and oogle over Jaslyn and sing Purple Light. Please God please don't make me regret joining this cca since it will last me for 3 years! Omg and gym stunts growth! So much a sacrifice for nothing, nothing at all. What should I do? DAMN. Mrs Wee please don't stand on the sidelines. :(
P/s: Where are you Ms Loh how come I don't see you in school? :( P/s/s: I think Kris Allen is hawt partly because (I think) Ms Loh likes him (:
