how much I wanted to give you another hug before our last goodbye
Friday, October 9, 2009
Dashed. Everything's dashed. The hopes, the faith and the desire to make you proud. All gone, washed down the drain. Do you have any idea how much I want to make you proud and give me that dashing smile of yours again? Now, I don't know why do I feel so strongly about this. This is the very very first paper (besides PSLE) that I really really wanted to do well. In the end? I think I screwed it up, big time. How am I supposed to look in your eyes again? You're my hero and you mean the world to me. I guess you didn't know that, did you?
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On a lighter note, I got the rsp scholarship YAYZZZZ I've got a $1000 bucks next year how cool is that! But I think I'm supposed to spend it on books on SEA :/ WHO CARES, I FEEL RICHER ANYWAY. (: I hope that for chem paper I can at least hit no less than 38/50 so that I can make you proud Ms Loh. <3 I'M REALLY PRAYING TO GOD FOR THIS. I've never felt so sure about wanting something like this before. But for this, I know I really want let you see that your efforts have not been in vain. I really really must do well or I might even be tempted to kill myself. :( So pleasezzz God, I'm begging you, give me one last chance to let Ms Loh be happy. (: Anyway, finally, all the very stressful subjects are over including chemistry (:>), history and geog! But there is still math and Malay and I'm lazy to mug. Shall buck up and start mugging either later or tmr. I suck, don't I? :( HAHA and S.K FTW! :B
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
how much I wanted to give you another hug before our last goodbye
Friday, October 9, 2009
Dashed. Everything's dashed. The hopes, the faith and the desire to make you proud. All gone, washed down the drain. Do you have any idea how much I want to make you proud and give me that dashing smile of yours again? Now, I don't know why do I feel so strongly about this. This is the very very first paper (besides PSLE) that I really really wanted to do well. In the end? I think I screwed it up, big time. How am I supposed to look in your eyes again? You're my hero and you mean the world to me. I guess you didn't know that, did you?
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On a lighter note, I got the rsp scholarship YAYZZZZ I've got a $1000 bucks next year how cool is that! But I think I'm supposed to spend it on books on SEA :/ WHO CARES, I FEEL RICHER ANYWAY. (: I hope that for chem paper I can at least hit no less than 38/50 so that I can make you proud Ms Loh. <3 I'M REALLY PRAYING TO GOD FOR THIS. I've never felt so sure about wanting something like this before. But for this, I know I really want let you see that your efforts have not been in vain. I really really must do well or I might even be tempted to kill myself. :( So pleasezzz God, I'm begging you, give me one last chance to let Ms Loh be happy. (: Anyway, finally, all the very stressful subjects are over including chemistry (:>), history and geog! But there is still math and Malay and I'm lazy to mug. Shall buck up and start mugging either later or tmr. I suck, don't I? :( HAHA and S.K FTW! :B
