Maths nearly killed my entire soul, I swear. :( I'm feeling this one of a kind,ominous feeling, a careless concoction of fear, anger, sadness,jealousy,and probably a tinge of self-pity? Whatever it is, I'm disheartened. Isn't it discouraging to under perform when time and again, you tried so damn hard to excel? I don't know, this feeling is crushing my heart. I feel so heavy inside,it makes me want to cry but then I can't let it out. I'm angry with myself, for spending so much time on the first two pages drawing the stupid histogram and then be stranded with less than 15 pathetic minutes for 3 mind-grueling sums. I feel so furious for not getting back what I'd given. I mean, c'mon, I spent like 5.5 solid hours for 3 days just to make sure I would know the methods in and out? This sucks. Everything sucks. I feel so hollow. Oh shit, I so detest this oppressive feeling, it's driving me crazy. Everything is not in my fancy, nothings going right. Now I'm so envious of people who managed to have logical answers for the last few questions, but somehow, I feel like strangling them and giving them a knuckle sandwich. D: I don't like how I'm wallowing in self-pity now. It's so not cool. But what more can I do?
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Even though there is no lighter note to begin with, I hope tomorrow would make me feel better. Chem topical test is up next, together with chem presentation. Then after that later this two weeks, there is english oral, chinese oral, malay oral, malay comprehension, killer geog, history and lit, then there is a friggin' dateline for poetry project and a pile of shitload work before the next holiday. I'm so looking forward to the holidays where I would finally meet with the datelines and get a mental break. Till then. :(
tired of chasing after things that don't belong, tired of struggling to impress, tired of trying too hard then falling so hard, tired of heartaches, tired of getting back on track, tired of facades; facades that last only to reveal the inside that you'd desperately tried to conceal
Maths nearly killed my entire soul, I swear. :( I'm feeling this one of a kind,ominous feeling, a careless concoction of fear, anger, sadness,jealousy,and probably a tinge of self-pity? Whatever it is, I'm disheartened. Isn't it discouraging to under perform when time and again, you tried so damn hard to excel? I don't know, this feeling is crushing my heart. I feel so heavy inside,it makes me want to cry but then I can't let it out. I'm angry with myself, for spending so much time on the first two pages drawing the stupid histogram and then be stranded with less than 15 pathetic minutes for 3 mind-grueling sums. I feel so furious for not getting back what I'd given. I mean, c'mon, I spent like 5.5 solid hours for 3 days just to make sure I would know the methods in and out? This sucks. Everything sucks. I feel so hollow. Oh shit, I so detest this oppressive feeling, it's driving me crazy. Everything is not in my fancy, nothings going right. Now I'm so envious of people who managed to have logical answers for the last few questions, but somehow, I feel like strangling them and giving them a knuckle sandwich. D: I don't like how I'm wallowing in self-pity now. It's so not cool. But what more can I do?
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Even though there is no lighter note to begin with, I hope tomorrow would make me feel better. Chem topical test is up next, together with chem presentation. Then after that later this two weeks, there is english oral, chinese oral, malay oral, malay comprehension, killer geog, history and lit, then there is a friggin' dateline for poetry project and a pile of shitload work before the next holiday. I'm so looking forward to the holidays where I would finally meet with the datelines and get a mental break. Till then. :(
